sorry i haven’t been on guys. I know I’ve lost a fair amount of followers but thank you all for staying with me~ my lifes turned into a living hell the last week and I’m just trying to keep to myself. I love you all though :)
- me watching the first 10 seconds of Wrecking Ball: oh, wow she finally made a normal video
- me five seconds later: never mind
(aka the long venting post no one is going to care about)
This isn’t the college for me. This isn’t the town for me. These aren’t the classes for me. These aren’t the people for me. But I’m trying to not be a failure (since all of last week I felt like one) and I’m trying to stick it out till Spring. I’m not actually sure how I’m going to last till December to be honest. Speaking of being honest, I miss high school. Horribly. I miss my friends, my boyfriend, I miss my bed, my home, the comfort of the same things im used to….but mostly my friends and boyfriend. All my (former) senior friends are scattered, not even joking, globally. And all my friends that are now seniors in high school send me pictures and tell me how much they miss me and they can go into class and wonder where i am and ugh, the tears. helppp. And my boyfriend and I….not even going there. Today was our 11 months and we’re crumbling. Badly. Besides that, college just sucks. The people here are douches, bitches, or just plain CREEPY. I’m dying for my own private room, my own friends can be bitches, and i want to be alone most of the time. I’m rushing next week…like me joining a sorority? What? And i’m basically doing it to see if there’s any nice people here…which I highly doubt. But honestly, pray for me that I make it till December.
It wont happen.
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
I REFUSE TO ACCEPT IT
ITS NOT TRUE
I miss high school. Don’t get fooled as believe people when they tell you college is better. All a lie. Can’t wait to be in the real world.
already back in the city, college move in tomorrow :/ fall semester please be good to me. Already disappointed/depressed I’m back
I hate that feeling when you know everything’s changing and you can’t do absolutely anything about it. And all these people you used to talk to everyday and now you can go days and weeks without talking to them. Even the people most important to you that you love the most. You can feel them becoming different and changing, not exactly for the better but just ever so slowly, and feel like they love you less and less each day. It’s like someone’s stabbing me in the heart. Four dozen times.
I THOUGHT THIS WAS THE SUMMER FINALE IM SO PISSED NOW I HAVE TO WAIT TILL NEXT WEEK WITH NO TV